update!!!

FOB/RK Addicts, The Emotional Wreck
life's been good. yeah right. my life is barely ever good. =( . the only
time my life is good is during holiday seasons
because there's all the cheery movies that are SUPPOSED to warm your heart
but they never actually do. which
SUCKS because i like movies that touch my heart. i guess it's because i'm
"emo." but what is the REAL definition of
emo these days? everyone is emo, everyone likes skateboarding, everyone
likes fall out boy and relient k just because
they are on tv. and you know what - that's PATHETIC. i mean some girls are
like "omg! i just heard one relient k song
and they are my life! i absolutely love them. i know everything about them
from their color of their hair to what they wore
yesterday. omg i'm such a freaking idiot!" it bothers me because these
girls are as fake as pamela anderson's boobs.
and we all know how fake those are. =/ . but anyways i think i qualify to
be "emotional." i do go through my states,
phases, and fads. just ask madison or jon, they'll tell you. i am an
emotional wreck. there aren't a lot of emotional wrecks
these days. you just have a lot of emotional biznatches. EVERYONE loves an
emotional wreck lol.


Kidding Myself/Cleavage
i think i have been kidding myself. i mean honestly why would a boy like
ME? i have nothing to offer, i have no "skills."
all i'm good for is letdown and disappointment, sounds a LOT like jordan.
ethan was right. i am not pretty and i'm not
useful. however he wasn't right about how i dress like a slut because i
DON'T. i hate to say it but "other" girls that i know
dress like sluts. it's gross because we're so young... i mean jeez girls,
put your cleavage away and keep your clothes on and
nobody will be scarred for life. the sad thing about it is that 45% of
these girls stuff their bras with tissues, hah i never
had to do that because i'm naturally big boobed. lol. on b4u, *cough*
showed her boobs to the public and i'm like
"WOW. there is like more girls on this site then boys and i doubt any of
them or lesboes or bi." so that's pretty gross but whatever.
but back to what i was saying, boys will NEVER like me because i'm no use
to them. i don't have a pretty face and
staring at my boobs will only get them far for so long.

Ethan
and you may ask, who is this ethan kid? well he is one of brandon (my
husband that liked to bang bang bang... with a gun)'s friends
and he said we'd get along well. so ethan and i were getting along and i
thought he was pretty cute. and i guess after
three weeks of being friends all hell broke loose because i didn't want to
go over to his house because i wasn't in the mood.
but ethan being a jealous macho pig (ha i like that) went all commando on
me and was like, you just want to hang out
with josh. which is TOTALLY untrue but whatever... ethan is out of the
picture and chelsea beat him up for me. lol.

BARBIE IS AWESOME TIMES FIFTEEN
what else hmmm... men are macho pigs who should die die die die die. no
just joking... we need men in this world.
+sigh+... why, i will never understand but without them we couldn't make
pretty little girls who get their hearts broken.
you know who we should all listen to when we hate boys... BARBIE GIRL by
aqua. it's a hot song and it talks about
fake girls with plastic boobs and long shiny blonde hair. i would kill to
look like a barbie right about now. =/ . i wish i
was a barbie. barbies don't feel pain. they get all the guys, they get to
tan every freaking day and to top it all off, they
can have whatever personality they choose. HOW AWESOME. barbie is my role
model. i want to be everything she is
and more.

Alex Rodriguez = HOT
so i've been getting into baseball. i know, reallly weird because i hate
baseball. its so boring. im becoming a yankees
fan. not because they're my state's main team but because of.... ALEX
RODRIGUEZ. can you say papi chulo (sp?)?
he is hot a furnace but hotter. oh my gosh i'm like soooooooooooooo
obsessed. i live, sleep and breathe alex
rodriguez. he makes my girl senses tingle. +does the michael jackson
giggle+ lol j/m. he is hot though... you HAVE to
admit.

The Andy Milonakis Show
"i got pees on my head but don't call me a pee head - i got bees on my head
but don't call me a bee head - i got
bruce lee on my head but i don't call me a lee head... it's my show i'm
schandy schilonakis, it's my show i'm andy
milonakis..." what a POINTLESS show. it's like public access and the tom
green and that one stupid show from off
family channel all combined. it's dumb. what freaking 26-year-old man is
living with his grandma and not working
or doing anything reasonable with his life. i honestly hope i do not end up
like him. he's soooooo.... EW.

My Boyfriends/My Husbands/Who I'm Obsessed With
i admit it! i am a cheating little mothersucker. lol. my boyfriends are
eminem, scotty leavenworth, bow wow, jesse mccartney,
andy roddick, joel madden, benji madden (TWIN LOVE YO), pharell williams,
gregory smith, james lafferty, billy martin, bam
margera, drake bell, jack desena, frank iero, junior from wildfire, jared
padalecki, jess from gilmore girls and ryan merriman, +
travis pastrana. and then my husband is... RYAN GUETTLER. oh heck yes he is
one man i would like to explore. lol.

i am currently obsessed with - benji madden, drake bell, alex rodriguez,
hilary duff (i dont know why and its not sexual!),
bow wow, junior from wildfire and ryan guettler...


This or That... Which One I'm For
there seems to be a lot of feuds going on. let's just clear up who's side i am on.
avril/hilary: hilary... avril scares me
paris/haylie: haylie... she at least looks healthy
paris/nicole r: paris
hilary or lindsay: hilary.. lindsay lohan is/was a blonde anorexic freak...
that's scary
joel or pierre: joel... he's cuter and his brother is hot like whoaa
james or chad: james lafferty hands down, no questions asked
adam or benjamin: adam brody
omarion or usher: omarion. usher is too arrogant for this senorita
nsync or bsb: nsync... the bsb or just like... not hot
mtv or vh1: neither
britney or x-tina: x-tina
angelina or jennifer: angelina jolie


so that's about it. i have glittery nail polish on right now. and that makes me happy!!!